Weekend Thoughts

My weekend is spent looking after my grandma: changing her pampers,carrying her to the bed, feeding her..I totally feel qualifield to be a nanny..anyone needs one? haha. It's strange too, i suddenly recalled how my grandma used to dote on me and my sis when we were little. Giving me extra money whenever i told her im off to school *thinking of the past*- this 5 or 6 yr old independent little gal carrying her bulky bag on her shoulders, rushing off to school. this elder lady will always ask if she had enough money to eat. she will go to her room and grab some coins to hand to her little granddaughter. She will not think twice about buying vitagen from the desperate door-to-door salesman when he claimed the drink will be beneficial to the kids. Yes. She loved me.... but how did that mysterious buried hatred come about? Ah.. it's called resentment. it's called complicated family history. it's called indirect influence. As i looked at her petite,frail body frame, her sunken cheekbones, her bony legs, something simply stirred in me. Perhaps, all is forgiven......... or maybe there isn't anything to forgive in the first place.

It's just one of those days, where you open the window and stare blankly at the trees and buildings, feel the gentle breeze caressing your face and you'ld just wonder what is life all about. You think about the people around you, are they who you think they are? is it a game of masquerade? who truely loves you and who are merely acquaintances or shall i say a passerby who stop-overed for awhile in your journey of life. i feel as if i've seated in a train for a long time. i wonder where is my destination? when do i know or how do i know how to get off? hmm..have i been thinking too much? perhaps everything is only a fragment of my imagination.

My Bazi report

Is it true? lol

My bazi report:

Personality and Character
You are somewhat old-fashioned and bound by society and custom. With the slightest twist of the law you manipulate a rule once a while in order to disguise the truth to protect yourself, if necessary. You will never get too emotionally attached to good fortune and the only thing permanent about life is change. You are outwardly a calm and gentle person but it is hard to know your inner self. An observant, nice and alert person you can adapt very easily in most kind of situations and circumstances. Though you appear to be calm and quiet people can be surprised when you suddenly blow your top or throw a tantrum without even realizing it. Service oriented as you are, you like to contribute to the well being of the human being.

Romance and Compatibilities
You are a practical person who involves affairs that brings you financial, emotional or professional gain. Your lover or partner are expected to take care of the home so that you can go out and make a lot of money. You need challenges and to prevent the loss of interest, your partner should not be too obedient or too demanding in order to maintain your interest. Aries, Gemini, Libra and Sagittarius born in Snake/Ox years are likely to give a sense of belonging.

You are very feminine and sensual and men are often attracted to you easily. You want men to respect and love you as what you are and not to treat you as a sex object, which can hurt you quite badly.

Profession
You have a persuasive, convincing, generous and pleasant personality. Success will be in hand if you get down to business and diligently pursue your goal, conscious of the need to be pushed to get started. Careers that relate to your good qualities are entrepreneur, advertising executive, composer or even politician. As a boss, you have a tendency to flaunt your power and are sometimes cocky. As an employee, you always question methods introduced and prefer to use your own.
You have interest in the financial field. You are alert and observant and sensitive to the public psychology but you are better off for working for others. Sales and marketing are good for you and working in banks, accounting firms, tax office or in other financial institution.

Happy Birthday to Me.

Standing at 25 doesn't make me feel any wiser or happier. Somehow there's still something lacking. Perhaps a lack of motivation , a goal or a vision for the future. I have to admit, I've been rather gloomy lately due to certain disappointments. But as usual, after a good long sleep and rationalizing i shall be fine. Just need to fine-tune myself and be focused on what's important for me currently.

Things to look forward to this yr / things i need to start:
1) Copywriting course ( i hope the lady calls, it's been a long time)
2) Job interviews
3) Jewellery making class??( still under my pending options list)
4) My sec friend's ROM & her sister's wedding
5) Begin the excel spreadsheet to monitor my expenses.haha
6) Get new friends